what i should do

i really very pressure now..

i don know what i should do now...

already few days

few weeks

also don know...

no answer yet...

i don know whether i should go for study

or

concentrate on my dance..

what i should do now?

im very pressure now..

i know i should make decision

but i really don know what i have to do now....

Jesus

please give me some energy

and

tell me what i should do now..

confusing

haiz
im so trouble now..
i really so fan....
what i should do now?
what is my future??
only i knew
but now..
i don know ..
i cant see it
cant feel it......
many ppl talk with me already
but i still don know yet....

diary of 10/3/2010

tomorrow...
SPM result is coming out..
haha..
what should we do now??
actually nothing can we do now..
everyone are asking me ..
will you feel nervous?
feel scare??
come on man..
what for to scare of it??
after you scare your result will change meh??
wont right??
so ...just take it easy lo..
but easy to say la..
ahaha
actually sometimes..
i also got think bout result de..
will feel little scare..
cause think back last time we are the 1st gang who the most fast to finish all the paper
and the 1st gang to step out from the hall..
haha..
think back also feel so cool man..
haha
5KAR..
biasa saja la..
apa nak risau ni??
kan?
haha..
buat tak tau je la..
haha..
kan kita johan kan??
haha..

now i starting to teach ballet le..
today is the 1st class for me..
is cool
and nice..
because i like it so much..
and have to say congratulation to my teacher ..
finally you pregnant..
haha
is a good news..
hapy to hear that..
for my kindergarten job..
haizz..
don know how to say la..
so far so good lo..
still can tahan..
but don know when
i will give up only..
haha..
really is not easy to teach at kindergarten .......
haha...

2nd day at Little Inventor..

ok..
now..DyDy was teaching at a kindergarten at selayang here..
my kindergarten name as Little Inventor..
today is my 2nd day at there..
2nd day only man..
gosh..
sore throat already..
the 1st day
principal send me to 6 years old class..
is easy to teach...
and every students are very clever
although got 2 little boy are so so naughty...
but im so enjoy at that class...
them also enjoy..

so
now..
today..
principal change my class..
im become 4 years old de guru tingkatan...
ok lo..4 years old is good...
only got 8 students easy to control that class...
all my children are cute..
principal still pass me to the smallest class..
which means is 2 to 3 years old baby..
oh gosh..
how i can handle it??
them still so young...
what you said they don know..
they just know baby language...
today..
got a little boy..
he want go toilet...
but dint tell me..
just keep cry at there..
i asked him is it want go toilet???teacher bring you go..
than he just pull his pants...
than he said don want..
than ok lo..i do my things lo..
suddenly...
he kencing at floor..
gosh......
really...very angry..
no idea lo..got to do ma...
you take salary what..
than i bring him go to toilet and wash si fat...
than help him change pants and clothes...
after that..
i still want to mop the floor le...
gosh..
this is the 1st time i treat baby...
i think is a good experience..for me..
next time i be a mom..
haha...
gosh.......
really...
speechless to all the children
but they so cute..hehe...
really...
although sometimes will angry them..
but i love all my children...
today my class..4 years old de..they tell me
Teacher Melody..I Love You...
haha
is happy because
this is what i get from all my students them...
this is my feed back..hahaha...
sweet...

whcih way i got to choose?

today
DyDy was very trouble now...
which way i got to choose now?
which way are better for me?
which way that i had choose i wont regret after that..?
which way?
college life??
dance life??
you all said just do it what you like..
i love ballet...
i hope i can get a good result from ballet there..
i can do it well..
but..
everyone are colleging..
i also hope i can too..
somemore..
i really don like give ppl to pandang rendah
all my siblings my aunty my uncle........
not only dad's side
even mom's side same too...
damn it la..
everyone are talking bout their daugther and son
they studying in college
keep sai ming at there..
actually still got many things de..
正所谓：家家有本难念的经
真的很烦恼
虽然常常说：不用理人家的想法和讲法
屁啦！！！
肯定会被影响到一点点的！！！
我的天啊！！！
我快崩溃了
我又要开始转牛角尖了！！！
really don know how now..
super duper miss my school life..
at least i don need to worry much things.
maybe alot of things is i too worry much..
but this is me...
i know sometimes
用口说是没用
行动才是最重要
many times i want to be
but..
my parents too protect me..
就连跌到的机会都不给我跌下
那我怎样能成长？
i really need someone talk with me
listen to me..

result is coming soon..
this is one of the reason make me so nervous and emo ba..
maybe...


just now i went to interview le..
as a teacher at tadika...
hope can learn more things at there ba...
i love you ..
love you all guys..

just now i saw fb..
that i wrote
我好像渐渐的被人遗忘了
actually not..
because i know still got alot of ppl are still care me..
thanks you guys....
原来我没有被人遗忘的
thanks guys....

you & me

love this pic so much..hehe..

daily life

28/2/2010
i bought new phn
sony ericson
T715
cool..finally i get a new phn in my life..
which it is use my own money to bought it..
it is my phone..
this time really can say is MINE
in my life i never have been my own phn..
18 years le..
some guys they will think is nothing special..
but for me..
it's different
this few days nothings gonna happen..
just bored at home..
yesterday i went to his shop..
i saw alot of leng lui at there..
heart got little bit scare and cemburu..
scare later..
but...
i trust you..
hehe....
i miss someone now.
i love someone now..