沟通

请原谅我的自私~
我真的很自私~
我知道！
那是因为我太在乎了~
如果我不在乎，我不会有任何的感觉~
今天是我最心痛的一天~
听见你哭声，
是我令到你那么的难过
我的心更痛~更痛！
我没力去撑了
我的心酸死了！！
酸到比像被盐洒在伤口更痛！
被刀刺更痛
被挖出来的更痛
完全是没有任何一个字能 形容出的 “ 痛 ”

part 1 of melaka trip

finally i back from melaka ~

is a sweet and nice trip that i have before

maybe because of my 1st time went out for so many days with my friend..

4 days 3 night le..

really want to thanks my parents they finally turst me and give me some freedom~

i really appreciate~

hahhaa

im finally really big girl already..

i know how to take care myself at outside without my parents

hahah

walao ..

melaka food

wonderfull !!!

super nice man..

first day at melaka:

monday~

when we finish our last paper which is music and drama, than we straight away go to melaka spent almost 1 hours~

when we reach we went to A famosa

coz have to wait other friends they came from jb~ we also take alot of pic there....is so nice because of the decoration~ rainbow colour light..so nice ..because christmas is coming soon.....

after they all reached we meet together and went to the restaurant and having our 1st meal at melaka...

poh wee parents really so good..order such many food..fried rice la...lao shu fen la..mami chicken..vege...yee min...and forget already..haha..all so nice..

after finish our dinner..

then we went to her house to meet her grandparents..after sit there few min then we all move to another house which is we gonna over night's house..

oh my god..so cold lo there...and so big~ we all chat chat chat..play play play..bath bath bath...then we went to slp already..coz get ready the seond day..

2nd day:

early in the morning..everyone get ready and waiting poh wee fetch us with her dad's car ALPHA...

everyone also not so well..i means everyone also still feel slpy..coz the night before everyone also cnat slp well......maybe is 1st day...new environment..

finally poh wee reached then we all very excited get in to the car..and we all go for dim sum as our breakfast...all the way to the dim sum..all the car who stop at beside us..sure will look at us..but they all also cnat see us.coz the mirror is black colour..then inside the car we all so happy coz got ppl looking at us..we feel that we like the popular stars..hahaha...

after finish the dim sum..oh my god !! is super duper cheap !!! we all order many things only 50 somethings..if in kl..oh my god !! more than 100....

after eat then we all went to the red bulding....walk wlak walk..then we all move to the jonker walk..

oh my god ! i spent alot of money theres..coz.i bought alot of things..hahaha...

almost 5 then we all move to our dineer place !!

SATAY CELUP...

my first time !! hahaha...now i knew what is the means by satay celup..

so nice.....6 of us........ we ate 148 cucuk of satay celup..

oh my god..can you imagine that.? all girls can eat that so much..hahha..

for my self i already ate 24 cucuk..with non stop.........

hahaha..

so proud of us...hahhaa.......

after finish eat..full like hell !!! then we all went to jusco and walk walk..for digest digest......

suddenly baby qiao wei...she stomach pain..want bang sai !! haha

everyone wait her at outside of the toilet..for so long.hahaha...

after this everyone power is low...

get in to the car and just quitely to home..haha....

then clean up ourslef then straight away to slp...

part 2 will be coming soon...

pls care bout me a little bit !!

im not angry with the baby
im not cemburu with the baby
im just don know why i feel that no ppl care me anymore

i just need ppl to care me lo..
i need ppl to love me ..

i just hope my parents still care bout me only..

我累了~
我真的累了~
我真的不知道要怎样做才能儞补
我能儞补回吗？
我的心真的很痛~
再次承受这种的感觉了~

我们的回忆
我们的故事
一直出现在我的脑海
令我觉得很痛苦~
我能怎样做？
你能告诉我吗？
你能不要那样的对我吗？

我真的很痛
我不想你自己一个人去承受那些压力
bii...
我们说好不隐瞒
为什么你总是隐瞒我？
我完全不知道你的事 ~你难过我完全不知道~
你真的很厉害！
你撞车，我却不知道
过了十多个小时，我上网
看到你写的
那时的我才知道！
当我知道的时刻，我崩溃~
因为，我什么都不知道，还在你心情
那么的差，我教训了你一顿！！！
你说我有用没有用！
自己的男人发生事，我都不知道！
还在踩多你一脚，让你更烦~！！！

我知道你为什么你跟我说，是因为你怕我又哭，担心你
但是
你不跟我说，我更担心你~
我真的担心到快要疯了你懂吗？
我在这里真的快要疯
我很想知道你有没有事~
我很想跟你解释所有的一切
但是
你总是让我觉得你不给那个机会我去做解释

第二天了！！
信息没有超过10 封
电话没有超过5通~
我真的很想念你~

我爱你~


对不起~
除了对不起，我真的不知道我还能怎样~
这段时间
我不烦你了
因为我是个幼稚的人~


alvin: 对不起~
我不知道你还有没有时常留意我的blog~
但是这些都是我想告诉你的~
我爱你

我真的很怕~
我不敢打扰你~
因为我怕我会让你觉得很烦~
我不敢~
我真的很想你~
我真的是个很失败的女人~

失败的我

年多了~
现在我才知道
原来自己什么都不是!!
我完全活在圈圈的外面~
原来
问题不是你~
而是我~
超没用的我
配不起你~