沟通

请原谅我的自私~
我真的很自私~
我知道！
那是因为我太在乎了~
如果我不在乎，我不会有任何的感觉~
今天是我最心痛的一天~
听见你哭声，
是我令到你那么的难过
我的心更痛~更痛！
我没力去撑了
我的心酸死了！！
酸到比像被盐洒在伤口更痛！
被刀刺更痛
被挖出来的更痛
完全是没有任何一个字能 形容出的 “ 痛 ”

part 1 of melaka trip

finally i back from melaka ~

is a sweet and nice trip that i have before

maybe because of my 1st time went out for so many days with my friend..

4 days 3 night le..

really want to thanks my parents they finally turst me and give me some freedom~

i really appreciate~

hahhaa

im finally really big girl already..

i know how to take care myself at outside without my parents

hahah

walao ..

melaka food

wonderfull !!!

super nice man..

first day at melaka:

monday~

when we finish our last paper which is music and drama, than we straight away go to melaka spent almost 1 hours~

when we reach we went to A famosa

coz have to wait other friends they came from jb~ we also take alot of pic there....is so nice because of the decoration~ rainbow colour light..so nice ..because christmas is coming soon.....

after they all reached we meet together and went to the restaurant and having our 1st meal at melaka...

poh wee parents really so good..order such many food..fried rice la...lao shu fen la..mami chicken..vege...yee min...and forget already..haha..all so nice..

after finish our dinner..

then we went to her house to meet her grandparents..after sit there few min then we all move to another house which is we gonna over night's house..

oh my god..so cold lo there...and so big~ we all chat chat chat..play play play..bath bath bath...then we went to slp already..coz get ready the seond day..

2nd day:

early in the morning..everyone get ready and waiting poh wee fetch us with her dad's car ALPHA...

everyone also not so well..i means everyone also still feel slpy..coz the night before everyone also cnat slp well......maybe is 1st day...new environment..

finally poh wee reached then we all very excited get in to the car..and we all go for dim sum as our breakfast...all the way to the dim sum..all the car who stop at beside us..sure will look at us..but they all also cnat see us.coz the mirror is black colour..then inside the car we all so happy coz got ppl looking at us..we feel that we like the popular stars..hahaha...

after finish the dim sum..oh my god !! is super duper cheap !!! we all order many things only 50 somethings..if in kl..oh my god !! more than 100....

after eat then we all went to the red bulding....walk wlak walk..then we all move to the jonker walk..

oh my god ! i spent alot of money theres..coz.i bought alot of things..hahaha...

almost 5 then we all move to our dineer place !!

SATAY CELUP...

my first time !! hahaha...now i knew what is the means by satay celup..

so nice.....6 of us........ we ate 148 cucuk of satay celup..

oh my god..can you imagine that.? all girls can eat that so much..hahha..

for my self i already ate 24 cucuk..with non stop.........

hahaha..

so proud of us...hahhaa.......

after finish eat..full like hell !!! then we all went to jusco and walk walk..for digest digest......

suddenly baby qiao wei...she stomach pain..want bang sai !! haha

everyone wait her at outside of the toilet..for so long.hahaha...

after this everyone power is low...

get in to the car and just quitely to home..haha....

then clean up ourslef then straight away to slp...

part 2 will be coming soon...

pls care bout me a little bit !!

im not angry with the baby
im not cemburu with the baby
im just don know why i feel that no ppl care me anymore

i just need ppl to care me lo..
i need ppl to love me ..

i just hope my parents still care bout me only..

我累了~
我真的累了~
我真的不知道要怎样做才能儞补
我能儞补回吗？
我的心真的很痛~
再次承受这种的感觉了~

我们的回忆
我们的故事
一直出现在我的脑海
令我觉得很痛苦~
我能怎样做？
你能告诉我吗？
你能不要那样的对我吗？

我真的很痛
我不想你自己一个人去承受那些压力
bii...
我们说好不隐瞒
为什么你总是隐瞒我？
我完全不知道你的事 ~你难过我完全不知道~
你真的很厉害！
你撞车，我却不知道
过了十多个小时，我上网
看到你写的
那时的我才知道！
当我知道的时刻，我崩溃~
因为，我什么都不知道，还在你心情
那么的差，我教训了你一顿！！！
你说我有用没有用！
自己的男人发生事，我都不知道！
还在踩多你一脚，让你更烦~！！！

我知道你为什么你跟我说，是因为你怕我又哭，担心你
但是
你不跟我说，我更担心你~
我真的担心到快要疯了你懂吗？
我在这里真的快要疯
我很想知道你有没有事~
我很想跟你解释所有的一切
但是
你总是让我觉得你不给那个机会我去做解释

第二天了！！
信息没有超过10 封
电话没有超过5通~
我真的很想念你~

我爱你~


对不起~
除了对不起，我真的不知道我还能怎样~
这段时间
我不烦你了
因为我是个幼稚的人~


alvin: 对不起~
我不知道你还有没有时常留意我的blog~
但是这些都是我想告诉你的~
我爱你

我真的很怕~
我不敢打扰你~
因为我怕我会让你觉得很烦~
我不敢~
我真的很想你~
我真的是个很失败的女人~

失败的我

年多了~
现在我才知道
原来自己什么都不是!!
我完全活在圈圈的外面~
原来
问题不是你~
而是我~
超没用的我
配不起你~

a story bout a little girl

The more she hear the more she feel sad
The more she see the more she feel heart pain
The more she think the more she suffer

She choose to let it go
She choose to pull of herself from this dark place
She choose to step out from here

She been long time never touch her piano
and also
never dance

both of YOU never been leave Her before ~
this year you all leave her...
She cant said that she is a professional dance
She cant to said that she was very good in dancing

but
she know she herself have the passion
and
talent..
SHe miss ballet
now adays she have nothing to let herself to release when She feel stressfull and also pressure
so
now she always like to choose to hide herself
but
after something happen
she think she should be learn how to keep her mouth shut

in this worlds
now adays
you really can imagine what is real what is fake
you can different which is good which is bad

She always try to be good with you
*nono...
she not always try...
she is always the one to be good with you all
she really use the true heart to treat everyone there...
but
finally what she get it..
is that kind of hurt

She is so stupid..
because this is not the 1st times she get this type of experience
but still don know how to growth up in this way
she always fall in here
should we said she too kind?
or
too stupid??

random

学会了不去解释一切...一切...随之而去

这句代表的意思是？。。。

累~

又是什么意思？？。。。

你们有什么资格那么样说这些话？

或许你们有~

为什么不能简简单单？

为什么要那么的复杂？

我真的那么烂吗？

曾经的我是一个从不顾我自己感受的人

为了他人，我能愿意付出一切

不管友情，爱情

我都愿意~

但是~

每次我总是受伤的那一个~

一次，两次，三次，.........

日子久了,

回想它，未免是自己太过于傻~

太过于天真吗？

相信这个世界上，

“你对她好，她会对你更好”

这烂的一句~

但是现在我体会到了~

现在

这个世界上，

这个社会，

是没有那么的纯

我真的累了去为他人着想~

因为我真的不想那么的不开心了~

难道保护自己一两次

是个错误码？

我

想

我从现在闭上我的嘴巴吧~

让我

让大家都好过点吧~

女人的世界

是我没有在改变吗？

是我没有为他人着想吗？

或许吧~

我也不在乎了~

今天我与他们出去

我跟大家都有变好了点~

我终于愿意踏出那一步

但是当我踏出这一步了

你却变了另个人

是我踏得慢吗？

我想可能是~

我根本不知道你在想什么的

你一时一样

那种感觉真的很恐怖

女人的世界

就算你是女人你也很难去了解

sorry to myself

i feel very sorry to myself
i learn ballet since i was 3 years old untill now
im 18 years old now
i very sorry to myself
what the hell that im doing now??
i cnat let myself continue in this kind of situation
everyone are tried their best to on diet and back to the dance life
and how bout me??
keep eat snack and getting more fat
i feel so sorry everytime when i eat alot
but
i really feel want to eat..


im also very sorry to my teacher
actually im still got the heart to dance
really
i still want to dance
i still want to be a ballerina
i still want be myself

i donn want always laugh there
i don want always do somethings ulgy to myself to make ppl laugh
i want to be myself
i want everythings back to my life

MELODY WANG ZHI CHIAN
where your promised?
where your dream?
where your attitude?
where is your heart?


i want to back to my dance life
by the way
i also want back all my children in my kindergarten
i miss ballet
and also my children

no one can understand that kind of feelings
when every times all the children will come and hug you and says teacher xx i love you
they are everythings to me
everytime when they smile
you also will feel happy

everytime when you see the result
you will feel so touch from them

i cant even forget the feelings from my heart
when me and baby train them in dance
and they performance in everybody at the hall
thats is awesome!

人生的成长

谢谢我的宝贝~
qiao wei~
因为你的话~
让我改变了~真的谢谢~

我前一阵子
为了朋友的
伤心了一段日子~

但是，因为你！！
我。。变了~
我明白了~
我知道了~

谢谢~

我的眼泪一直不停得流出来
我也不知道为什么
我很没有安全感

家

当一个人有事发生时，谁会在你身边陪着你？
当你有难时，你的朋友会出来帮你吗？
当需要一个人时，他会出现吗？
我的老师跟我说过，
当一个人一直抱着消极的想法，所有来的事情都是消极的
所以你要一直抱着积极的想法， 让所有来的事都是好的~
这真的是真的吗？
我不知道！
我知道我自己忍得好痛苦
我好压力
我好怕
压力，怕到我晚上睡觉发梦哭。

今天真的好恐怖,好恐怖
为了他们，
我承受多少苦？
我承受多少压力？
我承受多种的事情！
我们到她的家，
他们吵到
差一步，就真的一步
就打架了
差一步，就真的一步
就报警了

天啊 ！你们说
我的生活
好像在拍戏一样
每天都给我那么刺激的画面
让我去承受

我真的接受不了！
求你们
停止它好吗？
我好累好累
我一直很努力的撑这个家
你为什么
一句话都不跟我说
就这样
弄散它？
看见我的家人
那么的伤心
难道我会好受啊？
我每天一回到家，我就要忍
我就要撑
你们到底懂不懂
我真的很累
累到我连发梦都在哭
我真的 很难过很难过
我无法专心上课
你们懂不懂？
是不是我不该去读书？

谢谢你们让我过那么不平凡的生活

这几天
实在是太多事情发生了~
全部都来得好突然哦~
我快做人家的姑姑了~
多4 个月就改变自己的身份了~
不知道这是件好事还是件坏事！
我自己好乱哦~
我已经伤心了那么多天
已经够了~是时候要做些东西出来了！
我会面对事实
我也会因为这事改变我自己~

我不会想要记在我的心里
就让时间冲淡一切吧~
我也不想把不开心的事
永远放在我的心里~

希望我的家人也能够像我那样
放手吧

你们（我的家人）
你们永远是我的家人
虽然你们一次又一次的伤害我的心
但我还是选择
原谅你们
因为你们是我的家人~

我好感谢你们让我的生活
过的那么的
“不平凡”
就是因为过这那么
多的挫折
你们的女儿我
已经成长了！

那种压力
我承受的好累好累 ~
我该放手了~

growing up

time pass by..
everyone are changing..
everyone are become more mature on thinking, movement,the way he/she talking.
is a good things..
for myself..
i think it also a good ways
i passed by alot of things recently..
it happened many things on me...
but i got to said thanks to it..
because it make me change alot..
i enjoy it..

dad mom

today
24/6/2010
i most hate day..........
just now when dad and mom came back from night market..
don know what happen they all argue at night market there..
i just know when they reached home..
they already scolding each other......
mom said dad are so black heart!! let her kena rain so long time....and dint show the right position to mom..make mom to go so far to find the car....
and dad was said: i told you the way..you never listne properly...

i don know and i cant say anythings now.
because i don know what happening actually.......
as usual..mom still keep scolding dad..
than maybe dad already cant patient to mom already..
start to be rude with her..
1stly he use his arm to croos over my mom neck..
he looks like want to kill my mom...
i was shock and i ran in to pull them......
i was very scared and keep scream..asked them stop !!
by the times..no ppl help me.........
only me 1 person..
but the home got 4 person beside my mom and dad
no one are stand out to pull them
i don know to see anyone to get hurt..........
than my mom still keep scolding again again again..
than my daad ran to my mom again and bit her......
i was pulling him..
but i dont have enought of energy ....
and for sure my mom sure hit back......
i was so scare no one here
i know my mom very scare here.........
i know..i know.......

i never thinks this things will happen on me...
i never think that...............
is like a dream..
everythings is like a dream..
i hope it really is a dream when you woke up already is nothing happen..
but is not...............
i have to face it..

independence

since i start my college already almost a month..
what i have learn..
alot of things..
finally i learn to be indpendence..
the way i said i learned to be independence is because
finally i dare to take ktm from kepong to kl central
than
from kl central take another ktm to subang..
with
ALONE...all the way..
still remember the 1st day i took ktm..
and finally i reached there..im very happy
and
proud of it..
because finally i learned somethings new that i never try before..
i think it will be a good start..
right?

and i get knew alot of friends there..
i don know how to describe today's feeling...
looks like moody....
really.....
maybe i tired already?
maybe not..

now my relationship ...
so so only..
he busy on his working
i busy on my college..

24th of may will in college at subang jaya..

tomorrow ......
24th of may！！
is my 1st day in college.........
segi at subang jaya......
nervous man..
don know what will do on that day.......
although is nervous..but im looking forward .......
because i can get know more friend..hehe.......

520

one more things..today is a special day
520
hope all the couples will get more sweet on today..heheh.......
hope i can sweet also..hehe....
love you darling

enjoy this few days

finally finish my sport day!
my students are very good..
good job baby...
teacher very happy and touch after the sport day...
you all are the best in teacher's heart...
finally i can break awhike..

just few days times for me only...
24th of may
going to start my college life already...
i think i will more no time on that time..
but i will enjoy it....

for my relationship..
i also don know how to describe..
所谓：走一步，见一步

so let us enjoy our moments

share my life for you all

16th of May
is my school's sport day..
nothing hope here..
just hope my children can do well well in every part they join !
teacher here will support you all..
as i promised you all
teacher will buy ice cream for you
if you all did well...
teacher trust you alll sure can do well ...
teacher love you all so much..

the 2nd things i want to share here is !!
i going to study at college now..
SEGI at Subang Jaya..
beside my school is summit..hahaha
can go shoping..
go find me la..haha
we go and have a lunch or dinner also can..hehhe
i think is a good news for me..
i looking forward it..

but the bad news for me is..
i less can online once i start my college life..
and sure i will tired die !!
but never mind..
because i trust
now suffer..later will have a better life

very sad

im very sad
very sad...
really very sad now...
becasue of him..

nothing to say

two days
two days already..
we never message to each other...
just when you reach home give me a call to tell me
GOOD NIGHT
i don know what to say now...

YOU NEVER VIEW MY BLOG

one more things..
bii you said you dint my blog's link..
than i send you already..
this morning you said you will go mc to online
i thought you will go to have a look with my blog..
because in here i got something to show you..
the blog is special for you de..
i hope you really can see it..
share with you......
but !!!
you never view my blog....

dye my hair 2010/08/18

today
2010/08/18
i dye my hair...
is a good experience..
is a good try for my life..
is a good things...
im happy with it..

today..
i thought bii finish work will acc me..
but!!!!!
never think
he will go out with friends for having dinner..
is ok lo..just a dinner only ma..
but suddenly he told me...
he want to watch movie with friends...
haiz..
everytime also the last minute only tell me what you want to do.......
bii........
i know im selffish.....
sorry...
if you tell me early you want watch movie with friends..
i ok de..
but...
i really don like the last person and last minute only tell me
sad now.....

this is for my bii ALVIN

this blog is special for my bii ALVIN
bii...
since we know from last year at msn here..we chat chat chat..
than we said we go and meet..
i still remember BON ODORI...
BUT
we never meet..because too many ppl there..hard to meet..
really very angry that time..
but
lastly we meet others day...
that time we still studying...after school we meet at sungai mas~
i don dare i asked selly wait with me..hahaha...
that time was AUGUST but forget the date..
but is before a week of 19/08/2009
than we having our 1st lunch..is it very super duper cheap..
RM2 de vegetarian restaurant..hahaha..
after we finish eat...
selly went back home and we took bus to go back selayang..but you don want me so early back..
you said go selayang mall walk walk.ok lo..
than we went selayang mall....
although the whole day we dint hold hand but i also will feel sweet...
finally i want to went back home that time
you asked me...where is my goodbye kiss...hahaa..
god..that time im so shy man..hahaha...
lastly i dint give you but you gave me.......so sweet darling..hahaha

after a week....
19/08/2009
we meet at sungai wang..
with ting...siang yee..
we take cab to there..than we wait you at one of the boutique shop..
i called you where you now you said you coming...
but suddenly you came out from my behind..ahaha...scare me...haha..
than you hold my hand that time...
god..your hand are cold and SWEAT ...
ahahhaha
but i don mind..hahaa...
than siang yee and ting said they can walk alone..
than we seperate already..but i don hope we seperate lo..i hope we walk together
but..
bii don like..
haha..
than we walk walk walk walk..
after that we all went to timesquare...
we reached timesquare seperate again..
than bii you bring me go to foodcourt..
i still remember bii eat clay pot chicken rice..
so so masin..
hahah..
than we sit there long time already..
than we want to back and meet them..
when we walk till escalator
suddenly you took out something in your pocket..
is a necklace ring...
god..haha..so so so sweet...
you help me wear in front of escalator..
haha..
bii..tell you something..
you really don know how to be romantic..
hahaha
but i like it..i love you ..
hahaha..
after that we meet back you all..than we back home together...
this is the day that we start our journey...
19/08/2009


after that we still keep going out when we finish school..
we went to garden and play ...
i like the feelings...
maybe hahha..
as you said..
im baby..
hahaha
obviously im your baby..hahaa..bii..
i still remember that time we having our exam
SPM...
after exam we meet..
we discuss what time we should come out and you come to my school
than we go out together..
hahaha
really so naughty la bii..
hahaha
we went to 1U
we having our brunch at BBQ PLAZA...
that is the 1st time i eat bbq plaza..
so funny....
somemore we should thanks aka to fetch us go there..hahaha..
but i miss the moment..
because only like this we got more time to meet..
see now...
you work
i also got work...
we so hard can meet....
somemore july i start study already...
haiz...bii..

bii...
i promised myself i have to do somethings for you.......
since last night...
the way i going back home i thinking..
why that day you went to soho..i will argue with you..
and why yesterday i went to clubbing you asked me to enjoy yourself..
you never scold me..
somemore you let me go....
bii....why treat me so good......
i don want you go because i scare later got girls close to you..i will cemburu..
but why you let me go??
the way i going back home i thinking that
are you not care me????
are you...
are you.....
but...
i know...
you are care me..im so touched when i get your call at 2 something in the morning..
bii....sorry make you cant slp well the whole night...
bii...
bii....i really very appreciate you....
bii...thanks alot.......
i love you so much...
everythings of us.......
is in my heart..

bii...
now you still not feeling well de ya..
pls drink more more water ya..
take good care yourself..
now i cant take care you bii..

emo now..

don know why..
emo now....
im listening zhu wo sheng ri kuai le..
sang by wen lan landy de..
everytime i hear this song..
sure..will emo......
as usual lo.......
cant control my tears..
i drop my tears...

very emo here...
so many memories there..
really alot..really...really..

finally
today i get my bank account....
ahahah
so excited today..
because this is the 1st i touch the ATM machine..hahha....
so excited..........
haahhaa......
i love it....

money !!!

today..
i get salary already.....
im so sad...
RM564.52
this is my 1st salary at kindergarten.....
haiz..is happy when i get salary..
but reach home than upset jor.....
because need to pay here pay there....
parents RM250......
open a bank account RM250..

left how much for myself to use?....
god man...
salary already very upset jor de.....
now back home......
luan till so so suck....
my home zhuang xiu.....
because of that day my house boom..
my kitchen there bakar...
so many dust there......
haiz.......
so so so so sad..........

i get my P lesen........
no use also........
mom don let me to drive..........
haiz..
what for i want to take exam?
what for i want to waste my money?
last time she said she pay for me....
to get my P lesen..
no need i pay.
but now she asked me to return the money to her....
walao ei......
haiz.......
money money money..
money is so important to me !!!!.....
i need more money in my life.....

my life

i have been long time dint update my blog...
i really busy on this few days.......
i just pass my driving test~
is happy ..
now i still the same.....
teach at kindergarten and every thursday i teach ballet..at my studio..
is tired lo...

something to tell my bii...

i love you
bii...
tomorrow i drive test....
bii.......pray for me..bii.....
but your bao bei me feel nothing le.....
hahha.....
hahhaha.....
bii bii...
baby love you so much bii....
i love you bii...
bii..
1 week le..
we dint meet for 1 week........
i miss you so much la bii..
bii..
im still feel not feeling well..
sometimes im very selffish..
i really hope you don work..
everyday spend your time with me..
but cant !!
i hope that day we hug together
sit together....
hold hand together....
sweet together.....
the times pass so fast....
i so miss you...
i miss your smell..
miss your lips
miss your hand
miss your ear
miss your eye
miss your hair..

i feel so sweet and happiness
everytime you fetch me....
so man...
sit beside you
see you so serious driving.....
really cant tahan want to cubit you..
haha...
lying on your shoulder when you drive.....
really so sweet to me....
thats enough
enough for me..
this is what i wnat..
simple
eat bread together
eat french fries together..
thats enough..
this is what i want..

bii
your bao bei love you much...
i miss you bii...

happy gathering at THE GARDEN at midvalley

wakaka..

what a cute pose is it..

haha..

actually want to act sexy de..

but don know.......

i like to act funny more than that..

hahaha....

but the result also nice.

after shoot

hahahaa.....

everyone are laughing when saw this pic..

especially my principal..

hahaha

wow..

i love this pic so much..

so sweet ..

is it??

hahahaha

this is LITTLE INVENTOR's

principal..

she are so cute and

nice

she treat us like her children..

she so nice with us..

we love her so much..

i love myself...

really..

eee...haha

so ulgy la me..

haha

abit small..haha

really happy at Little Inventor..

happy life at there..

everymorning can see all the cute cute

little boys and little girls.......

later i will upload my students pic here..

hahaha

looking forward.......

taking pic with them.....

hahaa..

i love all my students..

Teacher Melody miss you all.....

what i should do

i really very pressure now..

i don know what i should do now...

already few days

few weeks

also don know...

no answer yet...

i don know whether i should go for study

or

concentrate on my dance..

what i should do now?

im very pressure now..

i know i should make decision

but i really don know what i have to do now....

Jesus

please give me some energy

and

tell me what i should do now..

confusing

haiz
im so trouble now..
i really so fan....
what i should do now?
what is my future??
only i knew
but now..
i don know ..
i cant see it
cant feel it......
many ppl talk with me already
but i still don know yet....

diary of 10/3/2010

tomorrow...
SPM result is coming out..
haha..
what should we do now??
actually nothing can we do now..
everyone are asking me ..
will you feel nervous?
feel scare??
come on man..
what for to scare of it??
after you scare your result will change meh??
wont right??
so ...just take it easy lo..
but easy to say la..
ahaha
actually sometimes..
i also got think bout result de..
will feel little scare..
cause think back last time we are the 1st gang who the most fast to finish all the paper
and the 1st gang to step out from the hall..
haha..
think back also feel so cool man..
haha
5KAR..
biasa saja la..
apa nak risau ni??
kan?
haha..
buat tak tau je la..
haha..
kan kita johan kan??
haha..

now i starting to teach ballet le..
today is the 1st class for me..
is cool
and nice..
because i like it so much..
and have to say congratulation to my teacher ..
finally you pregnant..
haha
is a good news..
hapy to hear that..
for my kindergarten job..
haizz..
don know how to say la..
so far so good lo..
still can tahan..
but don know when
i will give up only..
haha..
really is not easy to teach at kindergarten .......
haha...

2nd day at Little Inventor..

ok..
now..DyDy was teaching at a kindergarten at selayang here..
my kindergarten name as Little Inventor..
today is my 2nd day at there..
2nd day only man..
gosh..
sore throat already..
the 1st day
principal send me to 6 years old class..
is easy to teach...
and every students are very clever
although got 2 little boy are so so naughty...
but im so enjoy at that class...
them also enjoy..

so
now..
today..
principal change my class..
im become 4 years old de guru tingkatan...
ok lo..4 years old is good...
only got 8 students easy to control that class...
all my children are cute..
principal still pass me to the smallest class..
which means is 2 to 3 years old baby..
oh gosh..
how i can handle it??
them still so young...
what you said they don know..
they just know baby language...
today..
got a little boy..
he want go toilet...
but dint tell me..
just keep cry at there..
i asked him is it want go toilet???teacher bring you go..
than he just pull his pants...
than he said don want..
than ok lo..i do my things lo..
suddenly...
he kencing at floor..
gosh......
really...very angry..
no idea lo..got to do ma...
you take salary what..
than i bring him go to toilet and wash si fat...
than help him change pants and clothes...
after that..
i still want to mop the floor le...
gosh..
this is the 1st time i treat baby...
i think is a good experience..for me..
next time i be a mom..
haha...
gosh.......
really...
speechless to all the children
but they so cute..hehe...
really...
although sometimes will angry them..
but i love all my children...
today my class..4 years old de..they tell me
Teacher Melody..I Love You...
haha
is happy because
this is what i get from all my students them...
this is my feed back..hahaha...
sweet...

whcih way i got to choose?

today
DyDy was very trouble now...
which way i got to choose now?
which way are better for me?
which way that i had choose i wont regret after that..?
which way?
college life??
dance life??
you all said just do it what you like..
i love ballet...
i hope i can get a good result from ballet there..
i can do it well..
but..
everyone are colleging..
i also hope i can too..
somemore..
i really don like give ppl to pandang rendah
all my siblings my aunty my uncle........
not only dad's side
even mom's side same too...
damn it la..
everyone are talking bout their daugther and son
they studying in college
keep sai ming at there..
actually still got many things de..
正所谓：家家有本难念的经
真的很烦恼
虽然常常说：不用理人家的想法和讲法
屁啦！！！
肯定会被影响到一点点的！！！
我的天啊！！！
我快崩溃了
我又要开始转牛角尖了！！！
really don know how now..
super duper miss my school life..
at least i don need to worry much things.
maybe alot of things is i too worry much..
but this is me...
i know sometimes
用口说是没用
行动才是最重要
many times i want to be
but..
my parents too protect me..
就连跌到的机会都不给我跌下
那我怎样能成长？
i really need someone talk with me
listen to me..

result is coming soon..
this is one of the reason make me so nervous and emo ba..
maybe...


just now i went to interview le..
as a teacher at tadika...
hope can learn more things at there ba...
i love you ..
love you all guys..

just now i saw fb..
that i wrote
我好像渐渐的被人遗忘了
actually not..
because i know still got alot of ppl are still care me..
thanks you guys....
原来我没有被人遗忘的
thanks guys....

you & me

love this pic so much..hehe..

daily life

28/2/2010
i bought new phn
sony ericson
T715
cool..finally i get a new phn in my life..
which it is use my own money to bought it..
it is my phone..
this time really can say is MINE
in my life i never have been my own phn..
18 years le..
some guys they will think is nothing special..
but for me..
it's different
this few days nothings gonna happen..
just bored at home..
yesterday i went to his shop..
i saw alot of leng lui at there..
heart got little bit scare and cemburu..
scare later..
but...
i trust you..
hehe....
i miss someone now.
i love someone now..

just hope can give me sometimes

i just hope spend sometimes with me
acc me
maybe i too stick on you
why everytimes also like that de?
last time when your com not beside you
you where got like that?
today i really give you alot free le lo.....
whole day sit infront of pc
watch your drama...
just hope when night you can spend your times with me...
but ??????????????
arh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nice shoot !!

nice shoot !!!

hahahhahahhahaha....

happy to meet you again..

half year le..

although we got alot of things happen between

this few months..

but....

i really appreciate it de..

today

DyDy was very happy to meet you back again

and

i got to tell you

i love you

n

miss you..

chinese new year 2010

so boring
this year chinese new year is the most boring year for me....
always stay at home
but
chu 3 is the most sweet memories for me..
haha..
we went to ts to watch movie
eat bbq plaza
i miss you guys
i really miss you
all my babies.........
when we can meet??
and my standard 6 de friends..
when you all want to gathering de???aiyo..
always say want gathering but also dint de..

18 years old life

i love this pic so much lo..

my 18 look..

before go out meet ting them..

this is my parents bought for me de cake..
haha..
the wrote pretty melody again..
haha






bought it from my shop
ORANGE DELIGHT..
is nice this fruit cake....really nice




this is what i bought for my parents...
polo t shirt

this is what i bought for myself for

chinese new year dress...

this is what i bougth for my

birthday present...

same..birthday present..hahaa

this is Ms Lim Suk Ting

bought for me de birthday present..

is nice..

because

orange colour..

haha...

i love it so much..

ting me and pei wen

me and ting...

me and ting again..

sweet 18

today is the 1st day of my 18 years old..
haha..is sweet and happy..
today we went to mutiara had our lunch..
we four people only...
me
ting
qi wen
and hui wen..
although im not so close and know them..
but is a happy journey today..
haha..
we four 1stly ate at our old place lo..ban mee dang..
when we finished ate
ting and qi wen went out..
they bought cake..haha..
surprise..
haha...ting so funny...
got candle but no lighter..
so she still put the candle and without light..
sing song than asked me to blow it..
haha..dint have light also..
somemore want to blow and next table ppl looking us..
god man....haha....
hahah
really sweet and funny..
than i told them this is the second year i celebrate my birthday at here..
hahah..really..
ban mee dang ...haha...

after eat..we went to the M J H C
is it correct???don know la..
i bought a bag...after that i saw the jie jie carrying the bag so nice
its something likes grey colour de...
walao ei......
i cant tahan le..than i bought it..
actually i consider long time le..
but finally i also bought it..haha...
so i spend RM60 at bag there..
than we chit chat at there sit awhile
play with her daughter
than we went to kepong jusco..
we went to HANGTEN...
i bought 2 POLO T shirt for my parents...
spend RM58
after that of cause is my turn lo..
haha..
i bought a tube dress...with black colour..
it costs RM59.90
but got discount la..
forget 10% or 20 % le..
haha..

my pretty teacher ching li and pretty girl melody..

cant you all see im prettY???hahah..yes i knew im pretty....

thanks teacher ching li and

all my ballet

friends

people not yet get ready la..

such a nice and cute mouth right???hahahhaha...

sweet 18 years....

im so pretty and sweet too...heheh..

keke

everyone are helping me

light up the candle..

ulgy face again...

haha

this is all the pic only..haha...

is sweet ....

18 years old...

happy birthday to myself..

say good bye to my sweet 17 years old..

10 more mins..
18 years old already..
say good bye to my sweet 17 years old...
18 is it a good start..??????
i don know ....
i hope will mean it..
nothing special for me..
in this year
i dint expect any single things..
because i don want get hurt anymore..
should i happy on my birthday???
haha..
good bye 17.......
welcome 18...

drive car lesson

oh ya..forget to share....
today car lesson..
cool ..
is cool at all..
i drive to ampang
than go cheras
than go kl
cool..
3 place i went today...
my uncle cool than me..
he can sleep at the car while i driving along..
hahahha....
lastly im safe reach home..
haha
really cool....

this is my fate

today............
i dint go to work.....

today...........
with mom got little arguement..
because i want go to midvalley with gor..
and she not allow me to go...
and talk crab at there..
all is rubbish.............

today...
don know should happy or what....
give ppl put airoplane again...
haha...
how come everytimes also like that..
maybe this is my fate...
accept*ing it..

im happy

today...
DyDy was very happy....
1stly i have to thanks my teacher ching li and all my ballet friends..
they gave me a surprise....
haha..
is really happy when i saw the cake........
with the words
Blessed birthday to PRETTY melody..
gahahha....is prove that im a pretty girl...
later when i get all the pic i will post it..
haha...today is 6th of february....
but my birthday is on 9th....
but anyway...
i really happy today..
is coming from my heart...
is real...
i love you teaacher...and my ballet friends..
yee min..
kai le...
shy ynn...
although just few...
but...i really happy..
unless im not alone to celebrate it....

please respect !!!!!!!!!

today i really so angry with all the customer..
hello...
can you all respect us awhile???
why cant you all pay money to my hand??why need to throw it on table?
hello..im not pengemis la..im a human...im a pretty girl..im a cute girl..........
im thinking that...if when i giving back the balance that time also give it by throw on table..what will you feel???
cant you all just respect us???a cashier ????

one more things i most angry
cant you all see ppl are sedang mop at there??
why cant you all just walk other way..why you all already know ppl wipe*ing here you all still can walk along the way??
hello...you guys know a not
is not easy to clean up the dirty floor.....
you know when someone done his/her job she will feel so happy and satisfied...
same as me...
after i wipe the floor..and i will look back i feel so happy and satisfied...because finally i wipe it till clean...
and who knows you guys make it till dirty.....
children i have nothings to say la.
but hello......
you all are adult....
you all also done it before...
im sure that you all also will angry if you all at my position...!!!!
really sucker you all..

last time when i not yet start my this job..
i really don know and will not respect them..
even a cashier or waitress/waiter or even take care of toilet's ppl
but now after i work..
finally i know..
i care them feelings..
i respect them..
because they are so suffer......
they so san fu to done their things.........
so i also hope everyone will same as me..
please respect them.....
them are so hardworking to work...
to done their job..
is not easy...
i know their feelings....

fevering

im not feeling well today le..

i so suffer now....

i need you...where is you??

i hope i can lying on your shoulder..

and hope get your kiss....get your care...

get you sayang me...

i really hope so ......

left 5 days i will become 18 years old le...

simple

today my car lesson..
oh no...the uncle so bad..
keep asked me do the things that i most scare de..
my car keep reverse...
i really scare of the feelings la.....because of SELLY !!!!
she make me got yam ying le la.......
now once my car reverse abit..i will scare and don know want how..
today uncle bring me to the round about
walao ei...really scare....so many car......
but i sure i can do it de....
trust me ........
i can get my p lesen soon.....

er....
what is my wish ar???
haha..
simple...
happy and healthy..
is that simple????
maybe la...
hey bro......
don asked me such a lame things ok???
your sis me already 18 le la...
haha...
as my brother is it have to do somethings for me??
actually same with last year lo..
i hope i can go ice skating lo...
eheheh
hahaha......

dating date

today
i went out with him..
haha
i think this is one of the brithday present for me..
hahaa...
is sweet for me..maybe we really long time dint meet each other le..
so happy to meet him today...
we go catch movie today...
i love you..
haha..

one of the things make me heart pain is..
when polly told me that she are sick now..
oh no..
really so suddenly..
polly....be strong....
my heart are really very sour while you tell me that moment..
and also see your jarum..
and your stomach..
girl..be strong ya...
i will always be with you...
take care yourself more..
and don eat such no vitamin things la..
i love you polly...

dissapointed

feel so dissapointed today...
and yesterday..
i had plan de things all gonna throw in dustbin le..
i had plan to go mv to find you..
but you told me you off too....
thought i can give you surprise...but finally..
CANT

and
tomorrow both are off...
i called you...
but you dint ajak me ....
i keep thinking whether you will ask us to have a meet.
but you dint..
finally i asked..
than you only say ok..
haiz...

DyDy not feeling well today

yesterday i already feel my eye are not feeling well..
who knows today early in the morning when i wake up
i cant even open my eyes..
all the "shit" are stick on my eyes...
so disgusting la..
so pain and feel gatal la...beh tahan la...damn it..
somemore bengkak le...
oh no...than mom still scold me said eyes already so pain still wearing lens..


him...
i don know he got how much things are hide on me..
hope i think too much la..

DyDy today was very not feelings well now...

very very very emo now..

don know why suddenly i feel i lost my way....
i really very moody now....
im hard working to be cheer....
but i still feel very very upset....
many bad memories keep blinking on my mind...
i told myself i have to more happy than last year..
forget all the sad memories be cheer this year..
i tried...but.....

i need a shoulder ...
i really very tired le...
i need it..
i very miss him....
now all are busy on thier working...
feel so lonely...
i know i should not said so....

few more weeks anymore..
my dream will not come true...

DyDy was very very very emo now..

thanks my dear siang yee
she told me something...
although i still very upset now...
anyway thanks you...

im back....

now i working at a cake house
ORANGE DELIGHT
haha...orange..my favourite colour....i think this is one of the reason that i go there for working..haha..
my working life....i don know whether should say good or not good...
maybe it can make me become more mature on my thinking..
my working life are definitely different when i was still studying at school...which means my school life...i really so miss the moment...
they all so scary...i means my colleague 不是我想象的那么简单
或许是我单纯吧~

i think i will study soon...
maybe hotel management or performing art
i still thinking which one i have to choose ...

today at shop i cried...
so so so sad ....
i will more carefull next time...


him....
still the same..busy on working...