my feelings

my mind are blank now..
but inside my heart ...there are so many difference de feeling with me...
i don know how to describe the feeling...i cant says out with word....
i really damn suffer now...maybe i think too much....
but
this is me...so how??
this few days i keep on pass in and out hospital...
because one of my mom's friend..
almost want die le
i really very heart pain..
although i knew i cant do anythings with him...
one of the way that i can did is just pray for him
i really very hate all this things..
although this is one of the things that our human will go through
every one will go through this way...
this is one of the journey that god gave us so however how sad i am...i will try to accept...
actually..
i get some new things from him...
i really learn something from him..
i appreciate my family members...
i can saw from them...they keep on changing everyday..
i just hope that you all are healthy ..
is enough to me..although last time i really trouble with "money"


for those that always just know how to eat...sleep..watch tv...n not even help us to do anythings at home..
just when the times up to eat...she just keep walk in n walk out and the face was black when we late to eat....
oh my godness...i really hope i can slap this kind of people..
but i cant...
still the same...for all my aunty and uncles
please have some responsibility
very clear to see..how responsible you are..


i miss all my babies...
few more days my gor's birthday is coming...
wakaka...looking forward nia..because as what i said..
i will give her a special big present...wakakaka
for my babe ling.....
babe ...don moodless anymore le..everyday see u at class also this kind of face...
we all really worry you de..and we cant say much things..
everythings will be fine...just depend how you think so ...cheerup girl...
we really left no much times le...so appreciate the days when we at school..after this..we really no more chance to enjoy this kind of life le...is real...
my next babe ting...
haha...she ....i don know what i can with her...now days she really look like siao za bo le...wakakka....but so cute...wakaka...especially her laugh..wakkaka...
next babe is the most important to me de..
because we always emphasize that
we knew each other for 11 years...that is polly...
she are a cute plump girl..although we always hurt each other..she always said im the shorter!!!
and i will told fight back her as fatty..wakakka...when we each other get angry le..we will say sorry to each other hahaha...she really is a cute girl...
lai kuan more cute....she always korea korea only..wakaka....don know when our babe lai kuan will change to other country...wakakka....
hui san...er...she are our class de genius...everytime maths..we sure become kopi ...
my kopi here means ....like to "copy"...wakakka..is it cold??little...
hahaha..



lastly...
mohammad alvin yap chun ho....
i love you...
although sometimes you really like a big kayu...
don know do anythings that i want....but i accept it..
because that is you..
sometimes i really very angry with you de...but what to do???
who asked me to fall in love with you???
i love your everythings..
but....hope can cahnge abit lo..wakaka..
and
i also know
myself...sometimes also very bad...i always make you worry..
make you fall tears...sorry dear..
i will change myself
hubby~
do you know that...at school got ppl asked me...how many boyfriend i have now..
come on man..when i heard this question i really get angry...i really don know what she means..
if i really have many boyfriend...so why i will put our pic..says bout our things...in msn even my blog..if not i wont make public it...right??
so hubby
i don care other ppl how think bout me...
but i really care you..
dear..
i want to emphasize it..
you are the one that i
really care
really love

DyDy says: Mohammad Alvin Yap Chun Ho , DyDy love you much