dance life

today

i back to dance life...

i don know is it correct a not..

now i really feel so sad...

i cant even do well a easy exercise..

i cant even catch up...

i keep not give up..

but till the end...i really cant control my emo anymore...

i cried out

i know

i know cant do cant do lo..no need so serious de....

you said: dance just for fun...

but ...

for me..

i really hope i can do well...

before start the class i already very scare and stress..

i already long time dint dance ....

somemore this class are so high level....i really knew i cant catch up de...

but i really hate the feelings....

you even dint look at me somemore...

inside your heart just have TAN YEE MIN !!!!!!!!

is it i did a wrong decision to back to my dance life???

i really very confused....

shabu shabu

hoho..
today after my last paper PERDAGANGAN
i step out from school i saw someone..that is my hubby..
wow..so surprise..haha..
so happy saw him..and he become more lengzai le..haha..
than we walk together to m with polly..
than i meet selly..
i really feel wanna eat shabu shabu..than all decided to go eat..
thats good..
but !!!!!
so far man...
we use walk to there..not with cab..
oh no !!!!
super duper hot and tired...
1stly we went to mei zi de..
than alvin suddenly said he want eat shabu shabu
than he just walk out from mei zi le..
i so scare don know want how..than..
i also follow him walk out than turn selly..
oh no man..
such a lame and shame things..
i really don dare to go mei zi anymore...really so fish lo....
after that we use walk again..
we went to shabu shabu
than go in and eat..
we all thought is buffet...just pay RM10 something than can eat till i shuang
but.....they wrote...
lunch time is calculate by plate...
walao ei..so finally we all choose to take set lo..RM9.90
than eat eat eat.walao ei...
my noodless....
really is very full....i really cant tahan le..
i feel don wan eat le..but..they said will kena denda if dint finish the food..
so no idea lo..
i force myself to finish it..
my hubby are too full le..he cant help me...
so really no idea..i keep put inside my mouth..really is very full...
after 2 hours we pay than we steps out from the shop..
i feel want vomit....is too full i cant tahan the feelings.
but i tahan it....untill we all reached batu 5..really cant tahan le..
when we going to bus stop by using the jejantas
i already feel all the things already stuck at my throat
than we went to kfc
i terus go in the toilet and vomit....
oh my god..this is the 1st time that i eat till like this..
really so suffer.....

tomorrow he start work le...
so must more independence le..
haha...
love you my dear..
muackz


today is the last day at school..
but don know why i dint have the feelings....
i miss my babies....

......

yo..
today..
go and change my tooth colours BLUE
than after that went to my brother's salon cut hair..
haha..i have a new hair stlye...
a new look..
haha..is satisfied...but....
more few days go cut again..and put colour..hahah
cold man..


damn !!
damn it !!!!
bull shit !!!!
angry now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on diet

yo...

tomorrow 8th of december...

i will go and change my tooth colour..haha..

happy...and looking forward..

but also feel little sad because cant eat again....

damn it...

now i promise myself..i want to be slim down..

because of new year...

i want have a new look...

especially my ceong sam..

haha....

start from tomorrow i will start my plan..

on diet....

cool....

hope this time wont give up so early..haha..

yes...

melody you can de..haha...

because of my future...

i want become a BALLET DANCER !!!!

BALLET TEACHER !!!!!

still left a day

just one day...

oh no...

i no more school life anymore le...

don know we still can meet like everyday we finish school ??

don know whether we already step out from this school we will change till how..

we will still friend?friend like now??we will still care each other?we will still share everythings with each other???we will still eat together??we will still can go toilet together????

so many question in my mind now.....

so emo ...

really emo

all my babies...

hope i will still inside you all heart...still care me...still sayang me....

THE END

my false ????????????????????

ha~
晴天霹雳 !!!
is my false????
she said is my false ~!!!!!
i have nothing to say now...why everythings is my false???
all is mine???why????
my heart feel like a sharp knife to cut it down....

angry with the p1

haha..today..

kin mouth so GOOD...

in the car said the person when we reach ts we saw the person..

too bad....haha..

haha..just now so funny...so many leng leng pic...free will upload some to share with you all..

friends keep said i less update blog now...

actually not i don wan update..

is the shit p1 !!!

already almost a week....pay also pay jor la..

still don wan let me online...

what is the hell that you all talking bout??

what kind of the attitude to treat your costumer??

bull shi la p1 !!!

rubbish too....

sorry

suddenly feel so heart pain..
i don know whether is it my false??
babe ling...i really don know what happen...
i really have many things don know de..
1st..
i really don know how kin zai how come have my phn number
ok he have my phn number is not so important..
i just don know why he like that...
i really don wish to make you and him aruge or let you hard to do...
is it my false???
sorry....

TEACHER MELODY

arh !!!
just now talking phn with hubby....
haiz..so many feelings now.......
i know i cant change you....and you also cant change me too...
but i try to change...because i love you..as you said you accept all my things...so same with me..
i try to accept all that i dislike's things
i really need sometimes lo..
just be yourself....

today after finish paper
we went to selly house...after that take cab to m
we went there for sing k....
actually many things want to write....
but now really no much mood to write
and somemore i had promised my baby ting
i gonna update blog...hahaa..

good news !!!
tomorrow 25/11/2009
start my job.....
tution at home....the boy is came from singapore...
he under me for 3 years le....
hahaha...every year end of the end he will came back from singapore and let me teach him..
hahaha....
so everyone pls call me as
TEACHER
hahahaha...
or
TEACHER MELODY
hahaha

im so tired today....super duper tired......

THE END

Mc donald with ting 20/11/09

hey..today i dating with ting ..

we went to mc donald again...we study..but.....the same things happen..

my cute cute dear he said want acc me..than ok lo..let him lo...everytimes he beside me i really hard to focused my study...because i want to acc him and chat our things...i can know why he always want to stick with me..the reason is because we less to meet..so i can understand his feelings...so i also let him lo...hehe..dear..sorry baby always let you too miss me..hehehe..

1stly..i went to ting house than we went out to take bus..he grandma fetch us to the bus stop..oh no..im proud of her grandma..so old le..still can drive till so cool...her grandma's driving skills are so pro..my heart almost drop out when i sit her car....after that we take bus to jusco....

in the bus..we saw a gang..don know from which school..they all sit in the bus they keep looking at us..and asked a question that let us heard ....they so funny the guessing which school we studying...they asked by this way : " which school they studying o??" so loud le....we hearded it...

we reach jusco le..we walk down from bus ting looking at back and i just keep walk my way..suddenly my baby ting she asked me to turn my head back and have a look..walao ei..everyone's eyes look at me and baby ting....hahahaa...what they looking for???

finally we reach jusco food court..i thought i can gave my hubby a surprise de..but let them saw dao me...haiz...my plan are destroyed.....!!!hahhaa..nvm la...haha...muackz..so happy..

after that we went to mc donald my dear still stay at jusco because they finish study at 3~so i wait him at mc donald...

climax ~...

when we reach mc donald..my baby ting still thinking whether will meet them a not??i means just now that gang....

oh no..she really so pro..finally let her saw it....the whole gang sitting at there ..and they eyes looks at us again....haha..suddenly so many eyes looking at us..feel so good...haha..

er....at mc donald have many things happen la...peggy and qi wen them also at there...hhaha..the peggy ar..so funny..keep learn from me..i means all my attitude when i treat my hubby..hahah....

i think also a sweet memories for me...hheheh..

my baby ting....you are so cute....and my hubby de friend said you leng lui...leng lui than me...wuwuwuwu,......so sad when i heard this from my hubby mouth...hahahha....but never mind..i know im pretty is enough..hahhaha.....

yaya..yesterday is our big day...alvin and me..

our 3 months ...hahaha....muackz dear..love you ....

THE END

sad with my english paper !!!

today is english paper and sejarah paper 2

sejarah no need say la..i 15 min already done...than have a nap awhile...after that heard everyone are pushing their chair...it is a 暗示 to us...to go out from the hall...haha..

as normal...when i heard all that noisy sound..i pick up my hand and stand up and walk off from the hall...is so cool man....45 min many people are walking out from hall....hahaha...somemore is sejarah paper 2...

the 1st person who walk out from this hall is our classmate...im not sure is who..but i know is my class..5 karisma ...really geng...im proud of my class ..hehe

today i really feel so dissapointed with my english paper 1...i really feel upset lo....i have no confidence le...haiz.... but for my paper 2 i really have confidence...because is easy..but i don know can pass anot..because before this i thought i can get a Credit de..but now..i don know can a not...haiz..i really lost it....no mood le...

THE END

1st day of SPM

fuiyoh!!!

finally ....finally.....finally..finish my 1st day of SPM....finish my bm paper....

should happy??? i think so....

because i can relax abit...because everyone are so gan jiong with bm..

after bm paper than sejarah ...

the most climax things coming soon...

before start our sejarah paper..i had told them bout my hubby things..

after we finished our sejarah paper..

is our lunch time..we went to mutiara to have our lunch..

while we eating the half way...oh my godness!!!!!

RAINING !!!!!!!

oh no...everyone are so gan jiong....

actually the most gan jiong is me....aiyo..biasa saja la....because im the person that always like that de..

really is 历史重演...hahhaa...

when hui cheng saw me..she scold me the straight way...

said bout my mouth...so 乌鸦嘴~

hahha..i also don wan de ma..i just told told only..how i know will become true....hahaah..

finally we have no idea...just ran back to school....

haha....i think this is one of the nice and sweet memories that god gave us..before we leave this school..hahah..am i right??

im so happy with the moment that we ran back to school.....really feel so sweet...

i think this is called " FRIENDS"....

i love you all my babies...

funny things:

bout her....she told hui san we sengaja no take her bag move away...hahaha..

really funny la her...actually we not sengaja..just forget your bag only...

she really so cute and funny..always asked people that you don like me ar??haha..you like that asked ppl how can the ppl answer you??hahhaa...

actually have many things want to blog and said de..

but i have no enough times...

i need do revision now.....

overall is sweet and happy and surprise today..

SPM left 6 days...

gambateh all my babies and me myself...

love you all guys...

SPM

SPM
SPM
SPM
finally also is SPM..
after this my life will definetly change..i don know will become till how...
but i just now..i miss my school life !!!
and all my babies!!!!

feel stress to my SPM

oh my god man..
i feel so stress now le...
exam really coming soon le..
left 24 hours only..
which means 1 day!!!!!!
oh no ..really feel stress and scare...
arh....
why need exam ??
im sure that every student's favourite question...
actually i also don know..what the hell they doing....why need exam???

happy day

today

i don know should happy or not..

today is our last day to enjoy our school life

everyone are signing other friend's clothes..

for me i draw a logo hhaha

my tittle 50 sen hahaha..

we so happy at school...

but after that we went to m~

ling and ting don know what happen suddenly face change le...

i really don know what happen to them....

i really don know~

i thinking is it whether i did something wrong??

is it i did something wrong??

can tell??

after that finish eat we take bus and went to my hubby house..haha

so sweet~

i was too tired ~

lie on his bed feeling so comfortable~really hehhe~

hope i can always lie on your bed and you stay beside me~

muackz.. we take some pic le..

waiting my dear to send for me..hahaha

请你们负气些责任

today DyDy will say somethings very sensitive to 王家的人！！！
do you know that...you all are bad guys !!!
you all really no responsibility!!!
just drop they at my house than just leave..what is the hell you all doing??
you all really so busy meh???busy till cant visit them ???
last time you all said..every week must go visit them and every month must pay them..
but now??they back to my house...did you all continue you all promised??
do you all guys know our situation???
can you all just think bout us??
i really feel wanna kill you all..

我要你们知道！！

我家的经济状况不是你们想象的那么样！！！

请你们负起些责任！！！

i love you

hahaha...

dear i love you o....

hahhaa

baby really love you dear..

hahaaa..

i don know how to describe my feelings now..

just very sweet lo..

hahaha..

oh no..

turn me pipi merah le la..

hahahah..

muackz..

love you dear..

and

thanks you my dear...

you make my life more colourful

majils restu

today our school having a majils restu

finally i realize what thats called majils restu..

firstly they gave some speech lo..

after that..they all called all the form 5 monitors stand up and follow with form teacher and take the sijil..

what is the hell...is my turn everyone are laughing

oh no ..im so fish man...walk till infront of Pn Hayati..oh no..i still thinking whether want let her hug anot lo..because her face "dry" untill...but i have no fucking choice..

because when we shake hand that time she straight away pull me to her 怀里..

that time i still asked en hafiz need kiss de ar??

than he answered me : you see others got a not lo..

really let him boom me..

after that turn my class name..i walk to the front than en hafiz behind me..i don know what he did at behind me..but i know everyone are laughing so loud.

and i just can hear the way he laugh..really very funny de..hahha...haha..

after hug all..just sit back my place and everyone are take turn to shake every teacher..

oh no..need kiss kiss again ar??

oh no man...

haha..after that..pn hayati again..walao ei..speechless..

totaly i kena her kiss four times le..oh no man..hahah.hahhahaha

i told myself i wont cry de..because i also don know i just know i cant cry..haha..

but..when turn to pn selva that time..

oh no..my tears really cant tahan anymore..but i dint fall down my tears..

just feel so sad and heart so sour..

she just a hug already can make me so sad ...oh no man..

finally till pn aslenah...

as i said de lo..i know what she will say the 1st word..

"haiz" hahha...

Ting...am i right?hhaa

after that turn en hafiz..

oh my god..the wong yi ting she really brave lo....

she go and try to hug him....haha..

en hafiz are terkejut...and everyone are laughing...

especially all the malay girls...

really..he face are so cute when he scare that time..hahhaha...next time act to you all..haha

finish majlis le..

now we went back to class so boring lo..and than we discuss somethings

bout after exam where we wanna go for holiday..

firstl we said sunway lagoon..but all the time cant match they want so we have to cancel it..

finally we said bbq...

actually no problems de...we almost discuss finish jor..and i said our location at near vanitha house de..

than all the indian girls....fuck them la....really bek cek them de lo...

fine we all change place...change to mc donald..

walao ei..everyone de face are different le..i means indian girls de face...

really feel wanna chop them de lo..after that i already angry i don want discuss le..

after i went back from toilet malay girls said no need care them..

just we all go only..than we still on the mc donald...and i think we will discuss to other place for our chinese girls..keke..

so our last decision

date:11/12/2009

location: mc donald(desa)

after finish school ~

me and selly went to mutiara for our lunch...

almost 1.30 alvin reach..

hehe...

so funny la...my hubby and selly gaduh..

cool man..for those wanna know my feelings come and ask me i willing to tell you all..

especially ting hahaha..

selly help us to take a pic..

hahaha...wait my dear upload than i will upload at here ...hahaha..

sweet die la me..

hahaha...

ya..almost forget our MAJLIS bye-bye

hahhaha

THE　END

feel surprise when i knew i gonna leave malaysia

i have a bad news to you ...

i will leave malaysia soon...i thought not so fast..but mom this early in the morning suddenly went to my room and asked me to go and renew my my passport..

because they checking ticket...for next month de..

i don know when i will leave and when i will back..i still don know..

i really don know everythings...

they just keep asked me to renew my passport as fast as i can..

i really don understand why need so fast..and rush?

before this i really hope i can leave here as fast as i can..

but now..

i feel so upset when i heard my mom said all this...

i think my 1st location is at

shanghai ...

others i really don know yet..

wait till i comfirm i will let you all guys know..

i also feel surprise when i heard my mom said all this ..

be patient and looking forward to my sick..

left 7 days

early in the morning i felt that im not feeling well..

1stly i message to ting told her im not going to school..

but..

finally i change my decision..

i back to school..but whole day feel little moody..

not because of others things..

is..

because i really feel not feeling well with my sore throat..

finally finish school..

reach home..i really cant tahan anymore..

already telan fews antibiotic

even lunch i also dint take..

after that i went to my room and sleep...

untill just now i only realize that..

im flu....

arh...

im also believe that..serioulsy tomorrow i will sick..

this is the steps that i always sick....

haha..

so just be patient and looking forward my sick..haha..

countdown SPM

8 more days...is my big day..

SPM ....

oh no man...is stress..but ..everyone thought nothings happen only...

today we went to mc donald to having our lunch and group study..

haha..is really funny today..

i have took a video ..haha....so ulgy la..

today are very happy and tired too....

this few days keep doing maths...

really very tired...but sometimes feel enjoy while doing..haha..

am i crazy??i think so..haha.

my hubby...

you are so cute..i love you so much..haha..

muackz..

i still can feel it..because im still is the human with emo

i can feel it...because im still is the human..with emo...

yesterday is my 1st time i heard his sound ..i means the sadness moody sound..i never heard it and never saw him like this before..i cant help you anythings..i just can listen what you told me only...remember a things..i will always be there...when you need a ear..and don forget everyone are care you and love you..

so must be tough and strong..you can do it..

today i saw someone that he really looks like him...i feel so surprise i really thought is him...although we meet i think we cant be like last time anymore..seriously dint miss you anymore..

actually this few days ...hard to describe my feelings right now..

i think i will be fine soon..

The End

Thanks My Dear

my hubby and i

oh my god..im so sweet .....

just now he called me and asked me to open facebook than i feel so curious ..

i don know whats going on...

after i open it..oh my godness..

i saw it..i reallly saw it....i really feel im so hang fok man...

alvin...

thanks you...really thanks alot...

just a little bit of things i already feel so happy le..

this is what i want....finally you understand me....really so happy today...

godness man

today...
DyDy was so brave...i did something ....
i cant believe it i can do it..........
really feel scare at the time...the feelings same with that day we went to mc donald ...excatly same man....
really godness man...

totaly my feelings now

who knows my feeling now??everyone are telling me she more hurt than me..but for me i don thinks so..because she already biasa not in the gang with us...and im the gang with you all..everytime saw they picture and heard they said bout that day de things ...i really feel so sad and my heart are so pain..i also don know why will feel like this...i really feel 被人忽略 de feeling...maybe not la..but i just feel it...just now she talk to me than i tell her all my feelings..than she told me now only i knew her feelings...actually is hurt la..but i don think she hurt than me..but i got bit touch when her told me she tried the best way to close with us..but we all just treat her like 隐形人....the way she told me the way she cried...actually is touch for me la...but...i cant do anythings

now turn my hubby..
im sorry because i always said somethings stupid things.for example i always moody or what i also will said something will hurt each other's things..sorry...and sorry i dint stand on your position and think your feelings...i should not always tell you i hate islam or what what...sorry dear..i really too bad...yesterday i was telling you somethings...bout i really scare when you start your new life....actually is real...but....i really 不舍得to give up you...i really cant do it....i mengaku it i got think before....but i realize that i cant do it ...dear im so sorry....
and i knew you really beh song when i tell you the jerk still find me..dear don worry..i wont care bout him anymore..i means i wont care bout his message anymore...and for the babi he wont find me anymore le..don worry..but i really worry you..dear .....actually
i need you....stay beside me
over rules i need you

Mr.Eswaran

today Eswaran went to our school to gave us a seminar bout bm...haha...is super duper nice..for those who miss it really rugi alot..haha..
as i said..he really very funny guy..especially when he teaching that time..he are different with other teachers..he are using the dirty method to teach us..but today he not so open when he teaching us at school..maybe he are not feeling well..and his voice are spoilt...but if you guys at perfection ..sure you will know how funny while he is teaching..he is a good teacher and a nice teacher...sometimes he are straight to us..but he also will joke with us...sometimes i really angry with him..everytime at tution centre there..he making joke ..than we all laugh after that he will scold us...said we are trying to waste his time to teach..asked us to shut up..walao ei..you are the one who making us to laugh..than now you are the one who asked us to shut up..so good la you..hahaha..but i still like the way he teach us..because feel so comfortable while he is teaching us..hahaha...
i just knew everyone are laughing when he talking ..and very happy to see him at our school..haha...is a nice day for me ...haha....

promised

as what i promised you all..this is the after i braces de pic...hahha

my knee

i feel so stress...i don know wheather is big deal anot ..but for me is ....in my heart have alot things i don know how to settle it de...hubby..i know what should i do de..don worry...and all my babies..don worry..im fine ...
babe ling..will your knee or leg pain??
oh my god..this morning when i woke up..
what is the hell..i cnat even stand and walk..
damn pain la.till now also my knee there bengkak again le..like last time ..oh my god..really very pain..really pain..yaya..i forget to said...yesterday we went to jusco to have our lunch that time...i saw 陈哲耀,...im not sure his name correct anot..the singer ar..he act 逆风18 that one...de 阿哲...at tepanyaki..i really don understand why every artist..when they went out must wear 太阳眼镜apo jiu wear 帽子？？？why so 鬼祟？
haiz..his looks still ok la...not so leng zai and not so ulgy la....but my hubby more handsome than him ....

happy day

today damn tired de...haha...so happy when we hold hand and ran all around and let them find us..hahah..babe ling sure know what happen de..hahahaha...
so tired ar..after we went the playground we went to batu caves..oh no..really super tired....im believe that tomorrow sure no energy to walk in class...hahaha....
arh...so sad..maybe this is the last day we can meet dear...i scare we have no chance le..need wait till after spm...actually dear...baby really very scare after spm...baby very scare later you get your new life...and everythings will be change...really very scare....
today happy and tired...
one more things. i have to said...aka are so cute lo..hahaha........he make me laughing and laughing...and everyone are looking at me..hahaha....
my hubby..baby today so happy..because we went out together..and we walk so many stairs..hahha especially at batu caves there..haha really very tired...and we at playground there...haha..when we run you all come catch us..hahaha..we looks like children..hhahaha..but is happy to childish sometimes..hahaha
muackz..
and babeling..haha
sorry la..i also don know what happen with my mouth..suddenly will call the wrong name...haha..sorry la..really sorry..hahahha...muackz..sek fan..hahaha

seriously jealous you all

today DyDy was very super duper upset
i really very jealous
really very heart pain....
when see all the pictures....
you all looks like a family.....i also hope i can in there...but why??why i cant???
i purposly bring camera to meet them..i thought i can take picture with them...but....
i know i should not expect so much...i really dint expect this times....when i reach shool i told myself i very happy because everyone are acc me...but all keep on changing place on that time i really scare they all will say : Let's us back home ba..thank god no...
seriously i really very jealous you all....

say good bye to my tooth..

good bye to my tooth..
i feel so sad ....i will miss my tooth....
i will miss my smile...
start from tomorrow i wont see my cutie tooth now...
i really will miss my tiger tooth....
now my feelings are so gan jiong...so stress man...i don know whether i looking forward or...stressing here...
hey friends....i have been trying to cheer up now...
start from tomorrow i will become 绑牙妹！！！

i realize that i cant forget it

today feel little sad ...bout our majils graduasi...actually what im upset i also don know...but i just feel so rugi..i cant join them....i feels like everytime got any big date i also cant join.....after that they told me after school meet them than hang out to have our lunch at kepong...exactly i will think back that day.........i realize i cant forget it...maybe she are right..don expect too much....
end by here...

oh ya....
this coming friday ....is my big day also....
braces ......
i become more ulgy now..although i knew i never pretty before....
sure i will more suffer than now...really suck of my life.....

happy day 27/10/2009

today DyDy was very happy...this is real..this is the 1st time that i went to playground and play till so happy ...babe ling you all are so naughty la..haha..now my knee are super duper pain...haha...i so happy today...because of i falled down from the slide...hahaha...
and Aka also so funny........hahaha...before we went to playground we had our lunch at happy city..while eating we waiting my hubby..haiz when my hubby reached..i feel so fish..because they all saw my BEAUTY pic...oh no...everyone knew my real face le..oh no..haha....but i happy too la..haha..now my hubby de phn have many my pic le..oh no....so fish man..
over rall im happy today
muackz..love you all guys...
and my hubby...this is the 1st time that i went to palyground and play till so crazy and happy..really thank god suk ting dint record down..if not sure i will fish till no face le..hahha...
and also the 1st time i run and stop the bus..hahaha.....
today DYDY really very happy.....
but my knee so pain...hahhaha...and feel very tired when i climb back the slide...feel like im just finish born my baby..hahah...
muackz

sleepy

today i was very tired...super duper tired..me and selly are so tired...we all feel so sleepy in class..but i also din sleep la..we all crazy at class too...hahaha...
nothing wanna write today..just hope ling will happy with her new life..

second class

today is my second class..the first lesson is akaun...i really don know what the BONG said what lo..and we really very tired...at the half way i hang out with selly..we went to 7-11 and i leave my hubby and my friend...haha..selly and i feel little hungry so we actually decide to eat maggie mee de..but...we all have to save money..so decided to ate goreng mee hun...wah !!nice...nice till the chili stick on my teeth..walao ei..so pain lo...and i feel so trouble now..when i eat somethings..if somethings stick on my teeth i really feel so uncomfortable..than we go back tution centre..and we went to toilet..and the toilet are so clean..clean till i feel want vomit..after that we thinking is it wanna back class??but still have half and hour o...but after that also decided to back class room...haaha..we continue dreaming at class..
actually have many funny things wanna write de..but.......my friend she looks like fall in love a guy..haha..he so man de..haha really very funny....after class we all went to 7-11 again...haha..we saw him buy the same things to eat like yesterday..haha...so funny la him..hhaha he had a name for us..haha....er...don said so much with him ...
after akaun is science ..wah..the teacher are so cold..cold than me de....haha....
aiyer..i always forget to take pic le..haiz....next week please remind me to take camera go k???we take pic ...muackz..
dear ar...i love you so much o..hehe...
muackz...

ya forget to say...
finish our class today..we went back by selly's boyfriend car..walao ei....
so scare la...when he driving....don know how to describe...
very terroristic....

我该忘记你了， 只好把你当回忆

看见你与她的信息， 真的很让我心痛
我不想再看见你， 不想你再出现在我的生活里， 不想再听你所说的谎言！！！
昨晚， 我让自己狠狠地哭了一整个晚上
告诉自己
我该忘记你了，只好把你当回忆

love you so much...

today is my first day tution at kl kasturi..
early in the morning i had woke up to took a bath and prepared everythings..
oh no ..so bad luck today..i was forget to brough my tution card ...untill we reached batu 5 station only remember i dint bring my tution card..oh no man...after that called my dad to bring it for me..
after that we had our breakfast at one of the restoran at batu 5...
after breakfast we went to take bus to go for tution..we reach there almost 9 something..our place so NICe...nice till i cant tahan....and our friends...she saw her mr.right at there too..haha..funny man..
after finish class we went to Mc donald again..i means the same Mc donald that we went ...haha..so many memories at there..haha...really happy at there..we talk much at there...but...just only i laugh..other just stare at me..haha..i also don know why everytimes when i said somethings joke or funny things..no one will join me to laugh...haha...maybe really no point..haha...

ya...forget to tell everyone...
i have a new name..
they help me to create de..
SITI WANG.....what a .....name...
haha....

ya..i had decide somethings..
so far SITI WANG will not leave alvin now..

what i should do now??

what i should do now? which way i should go on?should i ?

bleeding

i feel scare..i feel don wan become her second generation..i don want you all treat me like we all treat her that way...i just feel hurt this few days because you all are treat me with the different way..maybe i think too much~or maybe not..when i on the way back from school that time my brain are keep slide*ing some things..that make me feel that im so useless...for my everythings my relationship with you ...i know this few days i keep on very pek jek..but i also don know why i will like this...maybe sometimes you are playing with me but i think too much to that way..everythings is my problems..actually is feeling wanna cry soon..even in the car that time also feel that too..
i know maybe somethings i did somethings wrong..i apologize to everyone....
is it when the person that no mood that time while he/she listening any songs also feel upset and feel wanna fall of tears?when i try to look up to the sky that time i saw is raining..i feel that the rain are red..because my heart are bleeding..


End

21/10/2009

today is my dear siang yee birthday~as usual lo..we went to school...and wish her lo..wakaka..
just now assembly that time...all the teacher talks bout our pengetua...turn out to be is our pengetua will move to other school le..so we temporary have no pengetua at school..we so happy..but suddenly si tengku said..all the rules will as usual...haha...so pity lo..
for our form 5 still ok la..because still got one more months we already leave this school..but for our junior..haha...
hey guys..i really gave her my tooth for birthday present le..haha..
i thought she will angry or throw it far far away..
but she dint..oh my god..unbelieveable...she accept it....
after that i keep ask her to give me back my tooth..but she said..already gave people's things don think will get back..oh my god..she serious this time..oh no man..
than after that...she gave me back 3 she wanna keep 1...
oh no..haha..but ok la..at least my baby are back my side..and i really hope she will appreciate my teeth..don make it like hantu than ok de la...haha....don get lost ya...haha..
the most funny things is my security polly...she said..next time who brithday asked me to pull out my teeth again for their birthday present..walao ei...if like this than i really will become bo gei la..haha...so cute la you ...haha..

after school...
me, babe ling, selly, and lai kuan..
we four went to mutiara to have our lunch..
actually i thought they have celebrate with siang yee de..but she already date with abu than ok la..we celebrate next time la..we also understand your situasion de..haha..
i really become crazy le la..now days i don know what happen to me...especially when i talk that time..oh no...just now i saw a board..it wrote 开开心心but i see from the mirror..i saw 心心开开 than i very naturaly to say out..after that everyone are looking at me..and asking me what is that..than i asked them to see it..as usual..they all just stare at me only...but finally also got laugh la..haha...
aiyo..biasa la..everytime i said somethings funny things or joke..
no one will give my any response de...ahhahaha..just looking at me and ask me..FINISH ??
hahahah....

my hubby,
2 more days...be patient ya...we will meet soon..
sabar..not SABAH !!!
love you dear..
miss you dear..
muackz..

girls don drive youself at night...

scary man...
just now after tution i walk back home that time..i saw my friend he accident...my friend's car i name it as Red and kena langgar de car i name it as Blue car...my friend are trying to reverse than don know how suddenly i heard a sound..bomp....oh my god..is so loudly...than we all turn back head to see what is the matter..after that..oh my god..my friend he so unresponsible...the Blue car keep hon him..he also dint choi ...he just lap you than go ..what is the fuck....really very angry de lo..you thought you are malay den so big de la???the girl keep hon you already..you also don know how to do ar??bully girl ar???fucker la you...too bad la you....drop my spec with you already...damn you la....
if the Blue car de driver is guys...sure you will die...on the spot...
next time girls don drive yourself at night..because you all will rugi...

holiday

arh im very fan ar...i really don know want how ar...
why so ngam de???
30th of october....i don know i should how now..
i already had appointment since early....thats is braces ..
than my school also have a majils graduasi on that day...
oh no..how ya????where i should go??
school there i already paid..Rm 30
and hospital there i paying Rm 700....
which one more important???school there more important right??because take sijil o...but...how le???arh....very trouble now....

i think tomorrow is the last holiday for my school life....so how was you all holiday???happy??
for me..im not so happy at house...because i really become SPIDER WOMAN..
and mom always bring me go out to meet her friends....always meet the aunty uncle...oh my god..
is super duper boring...really speechless...they all always say the same things only..
her dance friends lagi teruk..i though they will high class abit la..because they learn dance what...but oh my god...if you all saw it you all will very gek...all lagi sam pat than us...and i remember mom always said...girls don simply let guys touch or don simply touch a guys...
oh no...they all like tak pernah nampak guys...shit..
sorry for writting somethings bad things bout my mom..because i really beh tahan all this 8 aunty 8 uncle....really "throw face " with you all

hey hey..all my babies..
how you all???
wednesday will many story to hear and say right???
haha..looking forward that day ...haha..
muackz..love you all my babies..


lastly ,
of cause cant talks bout my hubby things la..
erm..actually nothing want to say le..haha..
because now my hubby are group study*ing
of cause i love my dear la...

end my story.

on the way changing myself...

hey guys...
i destroyed my promised!!!
yesterday i really feel very tired is super duper tired !!
yesterday morning went out to meet ling selly n alvin...
after that we went to vanitha house...
walao ei..
her mother really very cute...
and her brother don choi me...don give me kiss to...
and i feel her brother have potential to be A character..
yaya..forget to say...
before we went to vanitha house we went to mamak store to have out breakfast...
i order a maggie goreng...
i cant eat also..just telan only...
haha..
others let alvin help me finish it..wakaka..
thx o hubby !! muackz..
after that we came out from vanitha house we went to mutiara
we went there for sing k !!
walao ei..
this is the second time i go sing k...
hahha...er...say seriously la..
have some memories..but....haha..nothing la..
wakaka..
haha...i just know i really very siao at there....
after turn my yam gor...
祝我生日快乐sang by 温岚
hoh !!!
my tears really cant tahan anymore..
same like the 1st time i went to sing k !!!
fall down my tears...
wakakka....
biasa saja la....
really think back many things....although everythings are over are pass...but the feelings still in my heart..i cant forget the feelings....
so many hurt things happen on me in this year...
and i have say out here...

LIM CHIN CHUN !!! thanks for the memories that you gave me !! i will remember...and i also have to thanks you because you really let me grow up become more mature become more know how to think...

and i also have to thanks all my babies..
you all beside me when i feel lonely and sad ...
really thanks you all..
without you all..i cant grow up too...
im very happy to heard siang yee said i've change alot
for me is a good things..
because i change to more strong more mature ....the most important things is more POSSITIVE..hahha....
am i right friend????
really love you all...you all are my babies...

haha..
now your turn..
mohammad alvin yap chun ho...
of coz i wont forget you la...hahah...if not later kena pukul from you..wakaka..
erm....i know my dear are very sek me..dear..really thanks you ....
erm....有些事不用说出来的， 我们心里明白就好！！
right??
正所谓 ：“心有灵犀， 一点通”
love you hubby...muackz..

talk to myself

Arh...still very pain ar..my tooth..
today is the second day le..
i really feel so pain...i cant sleep well yesterday whole night..
i feel wanna use toothpick to make the rubber come out..
i feel wanna throw it...
is really very pain..
and i cant eat anythings also..
just eat porridge whole day..
yam gong !!!
is really super duper pain lo..
arh..i really very be patient jor de lo..
if not ....
i already take out all the rubber le lo...
really fuck it !!!
do you all guys know??
how the pain??
the pain make me easy to get angry..
i really very pain now...
i don wan braces le..
don wan le..
but
i have no choice man..
already pull out tooth le..
some more is 4 tooth..some more is cant tumbuh balik jor de..
how come can say don wan braces now..
is too late le..

here i have to tell myself somethings :
MELODY..just accept it ba...
dont dream more le...
now you just sabar ...and sabar...
after this you will become more pretty le....

my tooths

what is the fucking!!!still bleeding
damn 7 pain la..my tooth...
totatly i had cabut 4 tooth...cool man..
everyone say F say S !!!

now have many blue colour de rubber in my tooth...

each teeth got 2 rubber so total i got 8 rubber in between my tooth..

arh..super duper pain..
today DyDy was very strong !!
DyDy no cry when kena inject that time..
but~just fall tears nia...hahha....
sorry la..is really very de pain..really cant tahan the fucking pain...
after kena inject she put the blue colour de rubber in my tooth...
walao ei...
feel likes someone are raping a virgin girl...

as i promised everyone i will upload pic..
so just be patient man..
hehe..

feel tired in everythings....

suddenly really feel moodles...
make me think back many things...i know i should not to think all that...but i cant control myself...
sorry dear...
hurt you again...
i cant do it...
once i think back all the sadness things i will think more others things......
im still thinking
am i suitable to have a relationship ???
am i suitable with you??
suddenly i feel wanna give up everythings...
i really feel very tired le...

十八岁下禁看

hey yo...
tomorow want become bo gei again...yer....stupid fucking la...sure everyone will laugh me again de..
i sure that tomorrow i will cry again...
i really scare for injection..really very de pain...
hehe..tomorrow you all can see my 4 tooth..wakaka....
i will upload pic de..don worry guys..and i will bring to school let you all buat kajian...wakakka..

i feel little stress...
spm are coming soon..oh my god...
is near le..i start stress le..stress not because scare will exam..
stress is because i not yet get ready to face this exam....
haha...
people now very hardworking to study..
but i not yet.....
hahaha....
sorry la..i know like that is no good...
little kids...please don learn this o....is not good !!!
thats why my tittle will wrote
十八岁下禁看


hahaha..sure will let you all kick me..
because i also feel very de LAME !!!
haha..
but just accept it ba..this is me..
guys love you all o...
muackz...

countdown for cabut gigi

today no so much mood...
and my purse now are so empty le
so suffer ar..
i feel wanna give up everythings that i had now...
don know what happen to me again....
don know why i really moodless now...
BUT !!!
just for a while....i wont let myself moodless so long time...
don worry..
because i had promised my hubby...i wont suddenly like that anymore...
i will think somethings that you ask me to think..not to think the bad things anymore..
dear...i remember what you said to me..
muackz...

and for babeling...
just accept it ba...take your time...give yourself sometimes to accept it...cheer up girl..

oh ya...
countdown ...
one more day i will go cabut my tooth again...
wakaka...totatly i had cabut 4...
oh my godness..
still the same...i will upload my pic ..
i will share with you all guys...
muackz...

change myself

today i also still the same..also feel very upset....
today just three of us me la..ling la..n siang yee..at school..i means our gang la..
other members are lazy..
today we talk alot of things..we talk bout our future..i really wish it can bring out our dream..
we also talk bout many things of friend's problem..
and i just realize somethings..
i don know what i doing is correct a not or wrong...
so that will make my security will hide something from me..
or maybe i just think too much too....
but in this matter that raelly make me think alot of things
is it my all my fasle?or not??
i don know..but i will change myself from this moment....
lastly
i have to tell everyone that i really use my real heart to make friend with you all...

alvin pls have a look...thx

just now heard my hubby said that his mom din cook...don know why im so worry...is it he argue with his mom again??actually i really don understand why his mom wanna treat him like that??maybe my hubby did somethings wrong..i also think his mom and dad take dinner le ma??if ta pau why don ta pau for you??..however you how angry but you also cant treat your son like that ma...
dear sorry if i said somthing to hurt your family..but i really very angry with your mom le...i relly cant tahan le...how come treat your son like this !!!!

dear...i really very worry you ....everytimes when i heard you and your mom de things..or when you mom scolded you that time..my heart are really very de pain...
dear...i wanna let you know something k???
listen carefully !!!
see carefully !!!


YOU MUST REMEMBER THAT I ALWAYS
LOVE YOU
CARE YOU

dear promist baby don fight with mom or don do somthing make mom got chance to scold you or what things??i know your mom no matter what happen also will scold you...but dear...i think can change it de..dear.trust baby k??
dear...baby will always be with you !! know??

Mohammad Alvin Yap Chun Ho !!!

this blog is special to MOHAMMAD ALVIN YAP CHUN HO

you are so 现实！！！

you know what i means de la...

no need i mention at here right??

wakakka..

blek...

ahahahha..

hubby..love you o..

muackz..

happy and sweet

today so tired~
really very tired~
this afternoon heard my hubby said he saw my blog
feel sweet...
im happy too...wakkaa..

my feelings

my mind are blank now..
but inside my heart ...there are so many difference de feeling with me...
i don know how to describe the feeling...i cant says out with word....
i really damn suffer now...maybe i think too much....
but
this is me...so how??
this few days i keep on pass in and out hospital...
because one of my mom's friend..
almost want die le
i really very heart pain..
although i knew i cant do anythings with him...
one of the way that i can did is just pray for him
i really very hate all this things..
although this is one of the things that our human will go through
every one will go through this way...
this is one of the journey that god gave us so however how sad i am...i will try to accept...
actually..
i get some new things from him...
i really learn something from him..
i appreciate my family members...
i can saw from them...they keep on changing everyday..
i just hope that you all are healthy ..
is enough to me..although last time i really trouble with "money"


for those that always just know how to eat...sleep..watch tv...n not even help us to do anythings at home..
just when the times up to eat...she just keep walk in n walk out and the face was black when we late to eat....
oh my godness...i really hope i can slap this kind of people..
but i cant...
still the same...for all my aunty and uncles
please have some responsibility
very clear to see..how responsible you are..


i miss all my babies...
few more days my gor's birthday is coming...
wakaka...looking forward nia..because as what i said..
i will give her a special big present...wakakaka
for my babe ling.....
babe ...don moodless anymore le..everyday see u at class also this kind of face...
we all really worry you de..and we cant say much things..
everythings will be fine...just depend how you think so ...cheerup girl...
we really left no much times le...so appreciate the days when we at school..after this..we really no more chance to enjoy this kind of life le...is real...
my next babe ting...
haha...she ....i don know what i can with her...now days she really look like siao za bo le...wakakka....but so cute...wakaka...especially her laugh..wakkaka...
next babe is the most important to me de..
because we always emphasize that
we knew each other for 11 years...that is polly...
she are a cute plump girl..although we always hurt each other..she always said im the shorter!!!
and i will told fight back her as fatty..wakakka...when we each other get angry le..we will say sorry to each other hahaha...she really is a cute girl...
lai kuan more cute....she always korea korea only..wakaka....don know when our babe lai kuan will change to other country...wakakka....
hui san...er...she are our class de genius...everytime maths..we sure become kopi ...
my kopi here means ....like to "copy"...wakakka..is it cold??little...
hahaha..



lastly...
mohammad alvin yap chun ho....
i love you...
although sometimes you really like a big kayu...
don know do anythings that i want....but i accept it..
because that is you..
sometimes i really very angry with you de...but what to do???
who asked me to fall in love with you???
i love your everythings..
but....hope can cahnge abit lo..wakaka..
and
i also know
myself...sometimes also very bad...i always make you worry..
make you fall tears...sorry dear..
i will change myself
hubby~
do you know that...at school got ppl asked me...how many boyfriend i have now..
come on man..when i heard this question i really get angry...i really don know what she means..
if i really have many boyfriend...so why i will put our pic..says bout our things...in msn even my blog..if not i wont make public it...right??
so hubby
i don care other ppl how think bout me...
but i really care you..
dear..
i want to emphasize it..
you are the one that i
really care
really love

DyDy says: Mohammad Alvin Yap Chun Ho , DyDy love you much

朋友

朋友 到底是什么？？
朋友的定义是什么？？
知己 又是什么？？
知己的定义又是什么？？

angry with perfection tution centre

arh..
today very de gek ar...
stupid perfection tution centre !!!
arh...
how come suddenly change tution fees??
you all are liar la...
you all untung so much lo...
every person extra Rm 10
walao ei...
next time i also wan open a tution centre...
so bad la..

today school canteen
so cool...
kebakaran...
so many bomba came to our school..
wakaka...


hey
all my babies...
will you all back to school tomorrow??
i miss you all la..

hey tell you all somethings here..
i already decided to give somethings special to someone for her birthday present..
is very valueable de..
really...
just be patient when the day come..
i will let you all guys know..

我不明白

刚刚接到一通电话
接了就赶紧的出去了
原来是妈妈的朋友快不行了
他患了癌症
实情不是很清楚
只是知道患有癌症 已经是第三期了 也就是末期了



到了那里
看见他们在谈论
“家产”
我真的很不明白
为什么稍微有钱的人一要去世就会这样叻？？
真的快要打架了！！
看戏看得太多了
真的没有想到 在我身边都会发生这样的事
真的事太戏剧化了

你们不觉得在这个时刻 抢家产
是件很恐怖的事吗？？
我真的觉得你们就像动物一样
自相残杀
真的很恐怖！！！
为什么不让他们安心得离开这痛苦的日子？？？
为什么人总是那么的自私？？
你们口里常常说：“我们是一家人。。。。。。”
但是一旦有事时.....你们去了哪里？？
有钱时 总是出现在你身边
没钱是 需要你们帮忙时 需要 你们在身边陪伴着时 你们都去了哪里？？

morning guys..
as what i promised..
i will upload my pic..*my tooth....
my nice tooth...
my fresh blood....
haha...
today is the second day...
still pain...but feel better than yesterday ...
but
while eat that time..need sometimes..
the most funny things is
when i brush my teeth that time..
i just brush one side..
my right side...i never touch it...wakakka..is dirty guys...
but...really no idea la..
is pain man....
hahaha....

hey guys..
i already be accustomed to my tooth
and now...
suddenly lost 2 tooth...
really tak biasa man...
while i drink water that time...i feel the water come out from right side...wakakka...
and i feel so empty ....so nice and cool..
haha...
here have some pic...yesterday took...

babe ling..
learn somethings new things from you..
must share everythings with others...
hahaha....

all my babies my dear...so pain....

arh....
pain...
really very de pain...
i already plucked my tooth le..
oh my god....
very de pain now...
i cried when i saw the big "jarum"
oh no..so pain when she injected...
everyone are laughing at me...hahaha..
when i sit on the chair...
i really very scare..and
my brain just thinking what will happen when i open my eyes...
arh....
i really cant describe the feeling when kena injected that time...
really cant describe with words..
if you guys want to know...
i can tell you all a things..
JUST GO AND TRY ONCE than you will know the feelings...

i still got one more appointment
that is 16th of october
oh my god..really want to suffer again....
actually i already very ugly
but now...lagi teruk....
arh....gek si me le la..

all my babies...
my dear..
so pain ......
:'(

MC donald

hey yo...
today
me.. alvin..babe ling..ting..and selly..
we 5 guys went to kl kasturi to register...
after we register at there...
we already cant bear with the "cool" weather...
we went to MC to have a tea time..
actually just want to find a place to sit down..
suddenly ....
have 2 guys came to our place to said some story..
he so funny...
he said ...:"i am not asking you all to donation..im just wanna tell you all some bout.........so you all if can can donate some..not Rm10 or Rm5 just depend you all...."
so i saw a Rm0.05 on the table..so i just pick it up..and show to babeling..
hahaha..
she understand what im trying to say..we both look at each other than .....wakakakka..
suddenly ...
in toilet...
this is the climax guys...
wakka..
but im not trying to tell you all the details..wakakkaa...
but is really so excite..
really..
once i come out from toilet..
oh my god..
everyone were stand at there and look at me..
shit...
so fish..
i cant forget it man..
my life are full of stimulate.....
wakaka..


ya..
forget le..
tomorrow...6th of october
i will go to draw one's tooth..
oh my god..
haha...so scare and stress..
wakka...


babeling...
suk ting..
alvin..
is happy today..
thx you guys gv me a fish and happy memories..
especially ALVIN.....
wakakkaa

first blog

arh...
im going to crazy le la..
what the school is this..
who will still use disket de???
oh my god...
really headache la..

i so sam fu type all things..
is time to save in the stupid disket
walk into the room n took the disket out from my cool bag..
suddenly the whole piece drop out..
oh my god..
what happen on it???

im so stress
because tomorrow have to pass it to the stupid teacher
oh my god..
i swear i dint do anythings to this disket..
i keep nicely
but don know why will like this...
i really very de scare ar..

now days..
who will still using disket de???
everyone are using pendrive le la..
what the.......school..
really gek si me le la....
all stupid de...

please upgrade la..


this is my first blog
first blog jiu so stress sad n angry le..
arh..
i hate this school ar...